Who is The Most Stupid????

I am the most stupid .. yes, it is that they always say to me,,
I can understand why it is ..

many times he hurt me me.but I never realized. I have a concern. I know what I do can be separated from him. I wonder ... when the problem spelled out what the feeling, that I feel all special. Overall it seems the same. But .. why I can do casual? Why do I so stupid?

I can do to open eyes with a clear exit when the door is already open. But still I just ignore, and I do realize about it.

In fact, despite the large spine that is to sheathe my body in, I do not feel the pain. But for the second time that a small needle puncture body is very light so that I feel the pain until I am so sick and out of the water.

What's this? Why?

This is so difficult I think. I clearly realize that all this insanity. But, why can not I do this ?????

I want to rise up, but I do know when. I just always so weak. I ni really crass, I may even have been mad. Until the senses can not think anymore ..
What can I can out of him?
Attention? Understanding? Or affection is sincere?
I think it's all aku.although not just any water drops. But I never think clear ,....

O god ... I do it for everything. I willingly release the person so I love ma. I have been untrue to the family about him, I was willing to be the person who is not no other me.tapi what he replies? He never see me there. he will see me if he wanted to have something of myself. In fact, he willingly destroy me.

Yes you should be the one thing that I only. You should always know, I am the heart that you have been hurt ....

I want to release anger, but I need to know to whom? Possible only on the self-I need to rage. Because this is one I,,,,