screaming heart that human was killed of first love

what will you do what turns you for this court to the people who did not love you?

I am surprised when I heard that he did not love me ..

I only become a place of release, if he needs,,, I like a toy doll that he was a time when I am are not needed, as I only decoration that is not useful ...

I love him, should I survive because I believe he will change?

but I feel, at any time until he will never change ... because for him, I am only a puppet ....... so, for he may be, will not have the means to change for me,,,

honest, I find myself sick of this ... he is my first love,,,

I am bad fortune, the first time for someone with a sincere heart, but so painful ,,,,,

Is this a sign that the story of romance in my life will be bad?

or perhaps this is the beginning of happiness for me?

if at any time that I failed to defend this story of love, i just want to say, that you are beautiful but painful ...